Currently Listening 9 Crimes By Damien Rice Elephant see related

my life is unraveling infront of my eyes.

ive lost my lover, my best friend, my sanctuary, the only family ive ever known, my secret keeper, my protector, my inspiration, my motivator.....

i must watch another loved one slowly killing herself, first her soul, then her body... and soon i will lose her forever. i will never hear the music in her voice ever again.

meanwhile im to broken and hurt to keep up with my other relationships and im watching them slip through my fingers one by one simply because i havent the motivation to hold onto them.

i have never felt such terrible, agonizing, indescrible pain and helplessness. never felt such intense emptiness...loneliness. if ever i experience worse pain than this it will surely kill me.