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| i have strange ideas and feelings these past few weeks.
painful past, frightening future, overwhelming present.
just let me sleep til the end of the ages lest all this time be spent wringing my hands and praying- beseeching for that which may not be attained and i wither away in the darkness of this world, cold and alone. | | |
| i finally figured out how to quit smoking and to not give in to cravings. obviously since i am not particularly interested in quiting for myself, i must find something to sustitute the addiction or find something to motivate me. more motivation is impossible. even if im motivated to "decide" ill quit, nothing has been enough to keep me from cracking when im lonely. substitution is also impossible. nothing is good enough or similar enough to match the feeling the nicotine gives me that isnt just as bad or worse with the exception of one thing. but even if this one thing were still available to me, it cannot be there whenever i need a cigarette. so i will use something im familiar with. Self-control and self-motivation are not my strong points. Imagination however is possibly the strongest ability i possess. instead of substitution, i will use the illusion of substitution. the only thing i can think of that would satisfy or calm me enough so that the craving for a cigarette is reduced to near nothing, is being in his arms. as long as i can maintain that state of mind, i am in control. | | |
| my life is unraveling infront of my eyes. ive lost my lover, my best friend, my sanctuary, the only family ive ever known, my secret keeper, my protector, my inspiration, my motivator..... i must watch another loved one slowly killing herself, first her soul, then her body... and soon i will lose her forever. i will never hear the music in her voice ever again. meanwhile im to broken and hurt to keep up with my other relationships and im watching them slip through my fingers one by one simply because i havent the motivation to hold onto them. i have never felt such terrible, agonizing, indescrible pain and helplessness. never felt such intense emptiness...loneliness. if ever i experience worse pain than this it will surely kill me. | | |
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